Hopes .

Nadzirah told me that . Yeah , she's right . Totally right . I was like catching the wind . I was like trying to get something that I know I wouldn't get it . :'( I tried to endure the pain but I still can feel the pain . I don't know until when I will be like this ; feeling down most of the time , fake my smiles . Urgh , hate this feeling . I am tired to be like this . I want to be the old me . Somehow , I felt that I totally changed just a blink of an eye . Haiyoo , but what to do ? Now , holiday = rot at home . Because there's holiday , and I will stuck at home , doing nothing but just keep thinking of him . STUPID . I wished now is school days . So , I will be with my friends and have fun without thinking of him . I miss school , friends . Bile lah holiday niyh cepat mampos ? Hate this feeling . :'(